My Father's Son

I am, unfortunately, my father's son.
I resemble him.
I have some of his mannerisms.
I am beginning to think in the manner and fashion as he does in regards to work.
I have over the years, treated my wife and children as he treated his wife and children,badly.
I drank like him.
I exhibited his cavalier approach to sex, pornography, and marriage vows.
I was separated from my wife and almost successfully destroyed her and our marriage.
I thought I made the rules in my life.
And when......
When all hope was lost...
When everything I knew, thought and hoped was broken to a million pieces......
When it was so very, very dark ........
When I could see no way out.......
When the whisper in my ears encouraged an end to the pain, to my life......
When I was so alone......
Then.....
Then I became my FATHER'S son.